As you so hopefully in my last blog post 've read, my grandpa passed away on Wednesday. The grief is naturally large. But everyone else is dealing with this grief. That's okay. Everyone must know what is best for one is to mourn. Given to me so I made my thoughts & some have on your mind.
Some sit at home then just insulate themselves from everything and everyone mourn now and back in front of you. When they leave the house because once they are running around with black clothes. To feel too bad if they think only turn to laugh at one time because they think of when someone dies, do not laugh. It would be wrong to laugh.
But I see something different.
Sure, most of the time I am also happy when I have my peace and can mourn for me alone. I think everyone needs to be able to abschliesen correctly. But I am the next day and immediately went to school, simply because I needed a distraction. If I had stayed home the day I had had much too much time to think about it too after. I think I would be just sitting at home and should have been crying all the time. And no one would have been there. I probably would have then fallen into a hole, I know me too well to say the can. Many have said I will still stay at home, I would not always be able to concentrate. But I must honestly say, I could concentrate very well and have a lot more in teaching than usual made all this sounds like a very strange at first, but it has a simple background. I could not previously make the right decision whether I should really make the technical college, or whether after this year I am looking for a training. I knew all the time that Grandpa would really love if I continue school. He also told me always. Now
after his death, I've decided to make school more. Because I know that he would have. When he still lived with his grandmother and in the hospital they told him that I probably do more school. He then said, although he hardly could talk, "Oh, I like that. Because I'm looking forward." When my grandma was telling on Wednesday evening, I knew immediately that I will do it. Somehow I was really motivated the school to make more, to exert myself so I have a good degree. He can be proud of me ...
On the subject of black clothing. I'm running now is not extra, dressed in black around the area to show that I mourning. And just because you make it that way, does not mean that I also do it. I have my own way to deal with it. Clearly, I need no black clothing. Sure, at the funeral I'll wear black, but not otherwise. Besides, if I would wear only black, I would not be out of the hole get out more. I am a person who needs the colors. Why I like the winter not so much because everything is so dull and boring.
laugh. I laugh anyway. And I have no feelings of guilt or a guilty conscience. Not at all. He would not do that we are all only here and make a funeral look, feel bad when we laugh. Moreover, if we do not laugh, it brings back not again. For us, life goes on!
by some of my class I have already collected a strange look, because I laugh so much. Along the lines of "Why are you laughing?" Your grandfather is getorben, you should rather weep! ". I'm just a man of lots of laughs. It's not really really hard for me to laugh. Even while the wines, it can happen that you can place me quickly laugh. For that I am not ashamed of really. Sun Binsch times now;)
That comes across as perhaps as I would not grieve, but mostly I cry to myself then, if no one will notice. I miss him very much. I miss it, just hold his hand, look at him holding hands with TV. We have often made. It is all pretty hard to stop him to have here. We have seen almost every day usn. He was always there when we had problems. Times a week sometimes if I did not have time to come to him, then he has called and said that he misses me, but I will come to him.
But life must go on!
If you have not previously given up and are arrived here below, I'd like to thank you that you have everything you really read. Because it's really much: D
But it did really well to schreibseln times too much of the soul!
How you look really the thing with the black clothes and the laughter?
I think the wars and the first time on the subject. I forgot my court I got nothing.
If, however, is just another Post;)
Thanks again! \u0026lt;3
your Katii ♥
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